Unpredictable-ness, Unexpected-ness, Unbelievable-ness

haven't blogged in awhile, since i was feeling so lazy...
today didn't start off well at all... woke up shocked to find ___missing.
and that made me super pissed...
what made me so upset wasn't really about ___ going missing
but more over the breach of trust AGAIN. that really hurt
i think my trust for the people around me is diminishing. i really don't wish for things to be that way
it surprised me that i was actually able to remain so nonchalant about it in school today.
the university talk was extremely boring, exaggerated and not  fruitful.
i just spent the whole time  there puzzle bubble-ing with wenyi.. lols
then after the whole thing i went home and slept for 4 + hours straight.. lols

i hope i haven't been mean to anyone recently. and if i have, i'm really sorry.
i haven't been having all that good a time either, suddenly i don't seem to be able to communicate too well.
maybe cos i realized that there are too many things i cannot say but that isn't cos i'm not open or anything.
but just that there are somethings that are probably unethical to share.
all these burdens seem to be weighing me down quite a bit
well once again i'm sorry if i have accidentally offended you in anyway.

promos are officially over!... did i hear a yay? haha
i think the chinese paper was like the simplest paper for promos...
hopefully i can ace it... lols ... it certainly wasn't easy but i guess comparatively its ok.. haha
after the paper i went home to change and WALKED to parkway to meet wenyi peehua n jess. ming shuan came later..
dunno wad got to me that made me decide to walk to parkway...
it was a nice quiet walk though... lols... nice time to think about things..
we ate lunch ate at banquet and on the way down, we saw something shocking!
hmm wanna guess?... ok i dun think any of you can anyway... haha
so umm... ya umm... we saw willy and a girl...and we were stunned, so figure the rest urself...lols
den we walked about and looked around.... i saw some pple from 1c, the class i orientated!
haha come to think of it, time has passed so quickly, like they are already sec 3! haha
ok then we waited for ms to come n then we went Kbox, which isn't really my kinda thing.. like singing...lols
but i still sang anyway.. probably sounded quite bad but who cares...haha
and we got HIGH and jumped about the seats... lols... kinda fun...
we sang like from 2-7 ...haha ... record for me ...
and we ended with FLINESTONES... haha 'the modern stone age family'
i think we're probably the only ones that sang it at Kbox.
well thats about it... tmrw its back to golf... lols
haven't touched my clubs in 3 weeks plus! haha

oh wow.... i finally had like enough sleep...
first time in a long time man... most of the papers are over...
except one --- chinese... may sound simple but its important...lols
gonna mug for it with berlin later...
actually with most of the papers over and done, i'm not sure if i should be happy...
they were all so so difficult and kept getting mental block... sian.
the verdict will be out in two weeks time though
so i guess i should just relax after chinese paper before my "sentence"...
read divya's blog just now ,and i saw this comment:
'You've left your footprints in my heart. Have I left mine in yours?'
OMG that's so like what i've been thinking about... haha

yesterday was a cool day... physics paper was scary...
but i guess it over now... and worrying really isn't gonna make me feel any better...
i suddenly think i should be able to promote... i hope i do whatever it is..
went orchard yesterday with jess, peehua, mingshuan,  wenyi, veron, rachel, xiaojia, junsen, huanjek n wenbin..
we ate lunch at wisma food republic... and i managed to find a big enough table..haha
the np part was fun... haha
then later when we wanted to buy ice cream, we got scolded by this ice cream man for not wanting his '"high quality" bread
den he was like hurling verbal abuse at us and even insulted our school... wth!!!
.. den huanjek wanted to go back to argue with him... funny la. luckily the other two guys stopped him..
saw alot of friends while walking to far east... but didn't really get a chance to talk to them
at far east the vietnam4, bought little miss stubborn shirts... haha
cant wait for the time when the 4 of us can wear it out together... wouldn't it be cool...
after that everybody shag liao den juz go home... lols...
now i cant wait for monday, after paper... but for now lets go chinese!!!haha

exams exams and more exams :x
didn't finish econs and math paper...
whats new yea?... maybe tmrw will be the miraculous day i actually finish my paper...
tmrw's chem... there's so much to study for it but there seems to be a bigger problem now...
the notes i studied earlier, i don't seem to remember much...
not sure if its the stress of my memory is really deteriorating
so now i'm just taking a short break...
how very much unluckily, i saw his nick "i'll always be in the corner"
seems like he really is waiting for someone... wth!...
this really isn't helping me relax at all...
maybe this's just the repercussions some things i said in the past...
i guess i'll just have to face the consequence and forget..
quit deluding myself...
anyway... now is not the right time for this...
STUDY STUDY STUDY!!!
just like the pledge js sent the other day:
" We the students of Victoria.
Pledge ourselves to do well for promos.
Regardless of science, language or arts.
To pass with flying colours.
Based on hard work and dedication.
So as to achieve more As, distinctions and get promoted this year"
my biggest wish right now is to do reasonably well for promos and get promoted unconditionally. jia you! 

Paranoid |||||||||||| 50% 49%
Schizoid |||||||||| 38% 53%
Schizotypal |||||| 30% 53%
Antisocial |||||||||||| 46% 47%
Borderline |||||||||||| 50% 47%
Histrionic |||||||||||||||| 62% 43%
Narcissistic |||||||||||| 50% 41%
Avoidant |||||||||||| 46% 39%
Dependent |||||||||||| 50% 37%
Obsessive-Compulsive |||||||||||||| 54% 40%

the results from the personality test i took the other day... think its rather inaccurate though...

i screwed up chem spa skill a making me damn depressed...
and i've been feeling unprecedented stress like never before...
it almost felt like i was going to have a nervous breakdown...
hiay... i guess the key is now to keep calm and not panic...
i should know better rite... i mean even when golfing, panicking is the biggest boo boo..
i can't expect myself to concentrate under too much stress can i ?
ah wells... whats done, is done... all i can do is to make the best of my current situation and not regret any further...
jia you! =)